fear is the main motivation force acting on me right now.
i know i get a tad neurotic and whiny every time an exam arrives despite my endless, boundless, all-conquering love for studying… but this time round, it feels different. it could be the fact that i’ve currently chalked up 2 failures in sample tests so far (41% & 50%… 70% needed to pass.) or it could be that i’m forcing myself to learn things which has never came naturally to me before, 4 years of brainwashing notwithstanding.
i need to convert all these nervous energy and fear-fueled adrenaline into my brain to stay focused on my notes before i screw up in the one thing that matters so much right now. it’s less of the exam itself and more of the expectations by myself and (perhaps) by a certain somebody.
